im not putting any more high hopes, on relationships.. EVER!
because in the end, things will not be as how we want it to be, thus
leaving me in devastation.
i sometimes thought about us,
i am so unsure how the future would be,
because i dont know whether it is right or wrong to be friends again after we've been together for almost 3 years
honestly i swear, i really had a great time having you as my companion as a friend and whatever we were 3 years back
but what is worrying me now is how am i going to cope in the future when you found a girl and u move on?
am i already prepared to see that?
i cuddled Vanilla every night and that made me thought of you so much, making my nights were so restless
well, that explains why i was always tired every time i came back from work, ended up crashing on the couch straight after Maghrib until midnight.
whatever were i thinking during the sleepless night?
never once i EVER thought of us getting back together.
we've talked thoroughly on this matter once, and both of us made it sounds so.... impossible.
i just thought of, could i ever move on?
like to forget you wholly and let u live ur happy life without me ever have to bother u again?
because i enjoy talking to u sometimes,
because someday i know i could never contact you again, most girls can never stand with their partners contacting their exes. (like i did, last time. yeah maybe i was a bit too jealous for no reason, but hell to that, the damage is done)
well, i know you wont be reading this at all. (no one really read) T.T
i dont mind, this is not for you to read, i just need to spill all of my troubles here just to clear my mind.
it was nothing really, i just think too much,
if i ever found a guy, maybe.... this matter will soon vanishes itself slowly..
it is just that at the moment, im kinda bored and lonely [being with family helped alot, but most of my friends are far away from me. i really need them. :( ]
luckily i have a few friends here,
and i am already started doing my industrial training.
just the kind things i need to keep me away from the extreme boredom.
p/s= from the title above, can you see to what extent i can go to? i thought it would be just be another boring rants. but no, my brain decides to talk about love. I am such a drama queen
♔ ♕ ♚ ♛ :P
